Ask me anything   "czajnik z herbatką" means "kettle with tea" in polish. my name is ola czajnik and this is my main blog. its mostly clothes, illustration, and pretty photos of landscapes.
my sketch blog can be found at- merescribbler.tumblr.com, and
my drawing style inspiration blog is- czajniki.tumblr.com. i also co-run a street snap blog for my school, found at- fashionofgettysburg.tumblr.com. enjoy your stay!

"Yesterday, I spent 60 dollars on groceries,
took the bus home,
carried both bags with two good arms back to my studio apartment
and cooked myself dinner.
You and I may have different definitions of a good day.
This week, I paid my rent and my credit card bill,
worked 60 hours between my two jobs,
only saw the sun on my cigarette breaks
and slept like a rock.
Flossed in the morning,
locked my door,
and remembered to buy eggs.
My mother is proud of me.
It is not the kind of pride she brags about at the golf course.
She doesn’t combat topics like, ”My daughter got into Yale”
with, “Oh yeah, my daughter remembered to buy eggs”
But she is proud.
See, she remembers what came before this.
The weeks where I forgot how to use my muscles,
how I would stay as silent as a thick fog for weeks.
She thought each phone call from an unknown number was the notice of my suicide.
These were the bad days.
My life was a gift that I wanted to return.
My head was a house of leaking faucets and burnt-out lightbulbs.
Depression, is a good lover.
So attentive; has this innate way of making everything about you.
And it is easy to forget that your bedroom is not the world,
That the dark shadows your pain casts is not mood-lighting.
It is easier to stay in this abusive relationship than fix the problems it has created.
Today, I slept in until 10,
cleaned every dish I own,
fought with the bank,
took care of paperwork.
You and I might have different definitions of adulthood.
I don’t work for salary, I didn’t graduate from college,
but I don’t speak for others anymore,
and I don’t regret anything I can’t genuinely apologize for.
And my mother is proud of me.
I burned down a house of depression,
I painted over murals of greyscale,
and it was hard to rewrite my life into one I wanted to live
But today, I want to live.
I didn’t salivate over sharp knives,
or envy the boy who tossed himself off the Brooklyn bridge.
I just cleaned my bathroom,
did the laundry,
called my brother.
Told him, “it was a good day."

Kait Rokowski (A Good Day)

oh no, I’m crying

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— 2 hours ago with 195279 notes
#depression  #poetry  #anxiety 

thumbtackjuicyfruitspork:

You know when a fast angry song comes on that you know every word to and you’re in just the right mood that your eyes light up with the fire and angst of a thousand punk rockers and you just feel so alive

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— 1 day ago with 140343 notes
#just wanna tear it UP  #power complex 

troylersquiffgame:

silent-dialogue:

what the fuck this kid has better style than 99% of the male population

wait holy shit this kid went to a summer camp that i was a counselor for… he wore louis vuitton.

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— 1 day ago with 293651 notes
#i didnt even know they had clothes like that for kids  #but actually can i dress like this  #clothes  #menswear  #hair 
Salar de Uyuni, Bolivia by night

"When the night comes, the starry sky reflects on its surface like in a mirror, and you have the feeling of being in space."

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— 6 days ago with 212821 notes
#bolivia  #salar de uyuni  #stars  #outer space 

winter-soldierss:

my best friend: *raises his glass and starts speaking all formal in polish, bringing out a toast*
me: amen.
him: yeah I basically just said “my pink goldfish has many worms”
me: …………….

— 1 week ago with 8 notes
#i should do this more often  #polski 
sweat-and-smiles:

long-distance-runnerr:

nezua:

motivation-station123:

bodydiy:

How to tie shoes for running

Wait I need this for my dystonia!!!!

seems like valuable info to pass along

I would have threw out 115$ shoes if I didn’t use the Toe problem one. God bless this post.

I use the heel slipping one and it actually works.

sweat-and-smiles:

long-distance-runnerr:

nezua:

motivation-station123:

bodydiy:

How to tie shoes for running

Wait I need this for my dystonia!!!!

seems like valuable info to pass along

I would have threw out 115$ shoes if I didn’t use the Toe problem one. God bless this post.

I use the heel slipping one and it actually works.

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— 1 week ago with 149429 notes
#neat o  #shoes  #health  #running  #exercise  #???  #stuff 

We know who you are, we’ve heard all about you, but hearing is one thing.

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— 1 week ago with 50574 notes
#; v ; breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee  #brienne of tarth  #warrior women 
"Hemingway and James Joyce were drinking buddies in Paris. Joyce was thin and bespectacled; Hemingway was tall and strapping. When they went out Joyce would get drunk, pick a fight with a bigger guy in the bar and then hide behind Hemingway and yell, “Deal with him, Hemingway. Deal with him.”"

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Between this and the story about him reassuring F. Scott Fitzgerald re dick size, I’m developing a picture of Hemingway as the mother hen of the disaffected white male literary set of the early 20th century.

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— 1 week ago with 27975 notes
#I DIDNT KNOW THIS  #omg hemmingway why am i picturing you as an adorable buff motherhen i cant  #hemmingway  #james joyce 

coyotelips:

miirkwoods:

modern day tolkien elves

modern day elves getting away sleeping in the classroom with their eyes open

modern day elves straightening each other hair

modern day elves wearing flip flops in the snow

modern day elves shooting with compound bows

just modern day elves

"Jeffrey what do your elven eyes see"

"the Roy Roger’s down the street is totally still open, and they’re putting some burgers on the grill"

"choice"

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— 1 week ago with 29783 notes
#CHOICE  #elf